Praying for radical change!

Ok...I have to admit it. I hate showing weakness, or even letting others know that I am struggling or sad but lately I have been grumpy, anti-social, and down right impatient. I have been in a funk. Everyone has been getting on my nerves, situations have really frustrated me to the point of no sleep, and I have been stressed out. The other day I came home from work and collapsed in my husbands lap and cried. I mean cried all my makeup off and convulsed. Then yesterday on my way to tap class I got a phone call that literally put me in a tail spin of sadness. What has been so frustrating is that I cannot even talk about it. The other day my friend Rece called me a 5:30 am because she knew that I was hurting and needed a girlfriend to talk too. It was so comforting to have her to talk to but I felt like I couldn't even put into words all the stress that I was feeling. I felt like I was just complaining telling her everything that was wrong. It's like I cannot even voice where I am at right now. Even Shannon tries and I just say, "I'm fine. It's all good."

After tap class I started thinking. All day I went about my errands, family time, and church in a state of thought. " What is my problem, and how can this funk change?" I came up with all kinds of scenarios of how to solve all my issues, but in reality they were not realistic. At work when my students are frustrated I like to quote the great Vanilla Ice, "If there was a problem; yo I solve it!" Then last night while putting Noah to bed and saying his prayers it came to me.

PRAY FOR RADICAL CHANGE! I am going to PRAY FOR RADICAL CHANGE in all areas of my life. I am making a sign and putting it up in my bathroom so that every morning I see it and PRAY FOR RADICAL CHANGE. I am going to let go of my stress, sadness, and fear and PRAY FOR RADICAL CHANGE!

I am also going to post these verses on my bathroom mirror so they slap me in the face every morning! It is time to get out of this funk.

Philippians 4:6-7 do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Psalm 107:28-30 Then they cried to the LORD in their trouble, and he delivered them from their distress. He made the storm be still, and the waves of the sea were hushed. Then they were glad that the waters were quiet, and he brought them to their desired haven